End of 2011

My 2011 was okay. A lot of great and challenging things happened to me and my family. Now that 2012 is getting nearer i can’t help but to worry and be scared. Why? I don’t believe in the “world will end on 2012″. I don’t believe that, only God knows when and it will come if it should come. I’m scared because as i get older, the picture of reality is getting even more clearer to me. It’s like someone or something is poking me and showing me what my future will be and the possible things that could happen to the people that i love.

I use to not care about my studies as an engineering student. I was looking forward to graduate so that i could get out of the engineering world and continue studying what i love “web designing”. Engineering is just not what i like. It was never my dream. I was really confused on why i took up my course. I was forcing myself since i started studying it. But despite the fact that i was not really interested in it, despite the fact that  engineering itself is a very difficult course, i managed to make my way away from dropping out or failing miserably. That’s why instead of stopping, i continued with an uninterested heart.

Now, everything is changed. I finally found the reason why. God really has a purpose. And right now, i officially make it as my goal in life. I thank God for opening up my eyes and giving me the strength and wisdom to accept this challenge. Now, i need Him every second of my life. Finally i found a purpose.

I am sure. Really sure that 2012 will be a very difficult and challenging year for me. I just have to prepare myself and build up my strength. I have to let go and entrust everything to God. It’s hard and i may make mistakes along the way but i will do my best.

Sorry for the sad posts. I just can’t find a jolly topic to talk about.

Also i’m removing my tag board. Its not free anymore so for now, if you want to say something you can use my contact form or through my formspring (that’s right i’m smiling lol).