My 2011 was okay. A lot of great and challenging things happened to me and my family. Now that 2012 is getting nearer i can’t help but to worry and be scared. Why? I don’t believe in the “world will end on 2012″. I don’t believe that, only God knows when and it will come if it should come. I’m scared because as i get older, the picture of reality is getting even more clearer to me. It’s like someone or something is poking me and showing me what my future will be and the possible things that could happen to the people that i love.

I use to not care about my studies as an engineering student. I was looking forward to graduate so that i could get out of the engineering world and continue studying what i love “web designing”. Engineering is just not what i like. It was never my dream. I was really confused on why i took up my course. I was forcing myself since i started studying it. But despite the fact that i was not really interested in it, despite the fact that  engineering itself is a very difficult course, i managed to make my way away from dropping out or failing miserably. That’s why instead of stopping, i continued with an uninterested heart.

Now, everything is changed. I finally found the reason why. God really has a purpose. And right now, i officially make it as my goal in life. I thank God for opening up my eyes and giving me the strength and wisdom to accept this challenge. Now, i need Him every second of my life. Finally i found a purpose.

I am sure. Really sure that 2012 will be a very difficult and challenging year for me. I just have to prepare myself and build up my strength. I have to let go and entrust everything to God. It’s hard and i may make mistakes along the way but i will do my best.

Sorry for the sad posts. I just can’t find a jolly topic to talk about.

Also i’m removing my tag board. Its not free anymore so for now, if you want to say something you can use my contact form or through my formspring (that’s right i’m smiling lol).

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First of all i want you to know that i love you so much. Even though we are not that close as we should be, even though we rarely see each other, even though we rarely spend time with each other. The unconditional love that you have given us and the sacrifices that you had to go through life just for us… Its very overwhelming and at the same time heart breaking. I may not see you during those times but i know and feel how hard it is to be away from people that you love the most. To be alone working far away from them, to worry every time problems come their way. I know how it feels to miss someone but all you can do is call them and only hear their voice when all you really want is to see them face to face and to confirm for yourself that everything really is okay. To be there with them when you needed each other the most. It hurts to know that you have to go away. I may not say this or show this to you but i really do appreciate eveything that you do for us. That’s what keeps me holding on, to someday make you proud and see you happy. I hope you know how much i feel complete and contented whenever you are here. I love you and to see you cry is the most heartbreaking scene ever. I hate myself for not being able to do something about it but listen and be quiet. I am sorry i just don’t know what to say. I was strong enough to prevent myself from crying  in front of you but that was not enough to keep my heart from hurting inside me. Maybe that’s the reason why i did not say anything. I’m afraid that my voice will get shaky abd that would probably lead me to tears. That’s the first time you talked about your life out there. It hurts to know the truth but it hurts even more when i hear it from your own shaky voice. You do not deserve to be treated like that. You really did not deserve it. You did not deserve to cry and you are certainly not to blame! I admire your strength as a person, as a wife and as a mother to you daughters and to your son. You are my hero and i thank you for everything. Don’t worry, i’ll do my best to make you proud and evetually help you with everything. We can do all things through God. Ma we love you.

If you are a very active person and is a health conscious being, you probably want what’s best for your body. to live healthy and safe. but with all the pollution and other factors out there, its hard to stay healthy and keep your energy up all day. Thank God energy drinks, vitamins and supplements are discovered to help us keep up with our hectic schedules. Today let us talk about Nopalea.

There has been a lot of rumors about Nopalea about it being a scam or not. As i searched over the world wide web, i learned that its actually a wellness drink that is all natural and drug-free. It can relieve you off body pain, restore your energy and can help you prevent aging. It actually sound really good. And i think the thing about these wellness drinks is that you have to pair it up with healthy living and a healthy lifestyle. Naturally, it won’t work if you won’t take care of your body or if your body is really not meant for it.

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