Opening my Box

What i hate most about my self is when i really want something but when that something is right in front of me i let it go away. Opportunities has been coming to me these past few days and i have been refusing to take them. So stupid of me. I know i really want to. I know deep in my heart that i want it. But what am i doing? Urgh! i can’t even explain it. Maybe i’m just afraid. But what am i afraid of? I don’t know.

I am afraid to take that step. To finally let all of my well kept dreams and skills out of that box. Afraid of what people might think and say. I’ve waited years for this. How do i solve this? Maybe its better to just make a decision and take an action. Then worry about what will happen when i get there. Snap out of it Claire! Go ahead and live your dream! (easier said than done). I know you guys have no idea what i’m talking about here. Sorry but i just have to let it all out.

I’ll blog hop to your beautiful blogs when i finally have enough time.

I have my Cup Full

Contrary to the picture above (an empty cup), I’ve been having trouble fitting all of the work that i have been receiving into my cup. Back then,  i was complaining of how boring and unproductive my life has been. And now that i have been given the tasks i have been longing to have for a very long time, i still find myself complaining on how it makes me so tired and sleepless.

Its funny how we always find reasons to complain about everything that is given to us. I have realized that i have been very ungrateful and form now on, i will embrace everything that comes in my life with open arms and an open heart too.

Tasks to do:

1. Balance my time among my 3 contracts on odesk
2. Do linkfromblog tasks
3. Finish my project in Electronics 3 (school stuff)
4. Finish my report (school stuff)
5. Pass my midterm quizzes and exams including finals too
6. Respond to job invitations from odesk
7. Make 6 wordpress themes
8. Find prospects for our little business

I know i should be focusing on getting good grades but opportunities doesn’t always come around every day so might as well grab it while its still there. Also good grades are only numbers, it won’t get you any farther than experience and the skills that you acquire form it. Am i making sense here? lol. This post is getting serious so i’ll end it here

Happy?

Hi guys! So what’s new? Well my sister bought her DSLR last Saturday! Yay? You know me, i’ve been wanting to have a camera like this since I got so addicted with photography. I consider myself as a frustrated photographer  . Sister bought Nikon 5100d.

I should be happy right? But somehow i was not that happy, imagine spending 40k+ on a single camera? That’s her almost 4 months savings, my sister’s a nurse by the way not regular yet. I know buying a DSLR was her purpose on saving money but somehow it doesn’t feel right. She owns the iphone on the picture too, see? That sums up to 50k+.

But why am i worrying this much? Its not my money anyways, now i can’t imagine myself when i finally get to receive that first salary or save a decent amount of money. I think i’ll be having a very difficult job on deciding whether to spend the money or not. I know its money, its supposed to be spent not to be kept.

How about you guys? Ever felt the same way as i am feeling right now? lol