Laugh and Cry

But friendship is the breathing rose, with sweets in every fold.
Oliver Wendell Holmes

Do you guys have some gay friends? If you do then you can probably relate to this post. Last Wednesday was my gay friend’s birthday. We prepared  little surprise for him, a poem that spells his name surrounded by his and our pictures and we placed it in a frame. He liked it and everything was ok until he got drunk and started saying things.

People say that you can be totally who you are when you’re drunk. I don’t drink and i’m glad i don’t when i saw what happened to my friend. I’ve known him since we were in first year high school and i never saw him act that way. I don’t know what he was thinking that day all i know is he wants to say something to us but he can’t the only way he can say it is when he is drunk.

He was crying and i know he’s hurt its weird seeing him that way because all i ever feel whenever when i’m with him was happiness. He always makes us laugh with his jokes. The things he said that day really affected our friendship especially to one of my friends.

I wish i could help him but i can’t think of a way and the fact that he’s gay makes it even more complicated. Imagine being in love with someone but you just can’t be together because its wrong and all you can do is keep it inside you pretending you are ok but deep inside your hurting so bad and your jealous of the people close to him/her especially when all of them are really close to you. I know its very hard for him i really do but our friendship is much more important that some guy!This is not the first time but this is definitely the worst so far.

I know that he knows that he made the wrong decision but somehow it did him and others some good. He can’t keep all of those emotions inside him forever. I just hope and pray that everything will go back to normal. I love these guys! This is just a test and we’ll get through it soon (hopefully).